I said a while back I am going green. So I recommitted with some friends this weekend to try to do a little of my part. I went to the supermarket this evening I am making some kind of mexican lasagna. Its a WW recipe to we will see. Anyway at the 11th hour after I checked out I remembered the 99 cent bags that i can use instead of plastic. Well low and behold, since Lowes gets all my money they were kind enough to give me 3 bags free (for 3000 green points - I had accumulated..I didn't even know I was doing that. Anyway.. I was only going to put this one pic...
But then I decided to put of this one too..kind of an oxymoron to have the recycled bags in your cart sitting next to your styrofoam cup and plastic straw... well baby steps!
OK looks like posting pics is on the fritz..pics soon to come..
Monday, June 30, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Scary Day
So today was a pretty scary day for me. I woke up this morning and found something very questionable happening to my body so I made an emergency doctor appointment because I have become a little concerned about my health because I am having to repeat mammograms and having ultrasounds - its a little unnerving.
So I was so frazzled after my discover this morning, I completely spaced out. I was having trouble quoting scripture about my situation, so I grabbed my New testament on CD and popped a cd into the car on my way to the dr. It was really an emotional morning for me. I found out that I having some problem woman generally have when they are lactating and NO i am not pregnant. My mother started talking to me about hysterical pregnancies, but I certainly don't want to be pregnant, so ruled that out to.
Anyway, the doctor gave me a prescription, and told me to push my august mammogram to july. (sigh). I was a BASKET case. I was wondering if I had any tears left. I tried to be positive and be grateful that I know what the current issue is and it is fixable. But I can't help but to worry.
I know a therapist who told me that I can control how i feel and react to a situation, but I gave up a bunch of control today. I was so emotionally drained from my mornings episode, I could only stay at work for 1 hour before I wanted to leave. Besides concerns for my health, I just started this job and I am thinking this is not going to work out.
Some of the girls from the job went out to lunch with me, and then they spent several hours with me talking to me at the end of the work day. Then we went out and stayed at Bonefish Grill until 11:30pm, talking about everything you can imagine. We didn't spend too much time focused on my issues, but when we did, they were super positive about everything and encouraging.
I even spent some time with my team lead at work, who is phenonenal and when called him this morning, he asked me if i needed anything since he knew I was alone and I really believe that if i needed something he would have asked his wife to come over and help me. I talked to him a little about what was and has been going on, and my concern over this job.. he was really supportive - so for that I am really grateful.
Anyway, I am really tired tonight so I am going to bed. I often talk about picking up posts later and finishing them, but i can't promise I will continue in my next post. I will say that I really feel like I really blessed because I have a great support network. Although I didn't (and I probably should have) called my church family, I know that they would have been there for me. I called one of my girlfriends in VA but she wasn't available. I told her I thought it was for the best at the point, and I really needed to work it out - with God right then.My mom was great - I avoided Dad a little, because I was in a fragile state and he doesn't do really good in those situations - he is a little at a loss. I will call him tomorrow :).
Anyway, I am fine and I am believing that everything is going to be fine..at least I am working on believing it. My emotions are mixed between relief and concern, and I am really thankful to God. He is my rock and fortress...so of whom should i be afraid??
So I was so frazzled after my discover this morning, I completely spaced out. I was having trouble quoting scripture about my situation, so I grabbed my New testament on CD and popped a cd into the car on my way to the dr. It was really an emotional morning for me. I found out that I having some problem woman generally have when they are lactating and NO i am not pregnant. My mother started talking to me about hysterical pregnancies, but I certainly don't want to be pregnant, so ruled that out to.
Anyway, the doctor gave me a prescription, and told me to push my august mammogram to july. (sigh). I was a BASKET case. I was wondering if I had any tears left. I tried to be positive and be grateful that I know what the current issue is and it is fixable. But I can't help but to worry.
I know a therapist who told me that I can control how i feel and react to a situation, but I gave up a bunch of control today. I was so emotionally drained from my mornings episode, I could only stay at work for 1 hour before I wanted to leave. Besides concerns for my health, I just started this job and I am thinking this is not going to work out.
Some of the girls from the job went out to lunch with me, and then they spent several hours with me talking to me at the end of the work day. Then we went out and stayed at Bonefish Grill until 11:30pm, talking about everything you can imagine. We didn't spend too much time focused on my issues, but when we did, they were super positive about everything and encouraging.
I even spent some time with my team lead at work, who is phenonenal and when called him this morning, he asked me if i needed anything since he knew I was alone and I really believe that if i needed something he would have asked his wife to come over and help me. I talked to him a little about what was and has been going on, and my concern over this job.. he was really supportive - so for that I am really grateful.
Anyway, I am really tired tonight so I am going to bed. I often talk about picking up posts later and finishing them, but i can't promise I will continue in my next post. I will say that I really feel like I really blessed because I have a great support network. Although I didn't (and I probably should have) called my church family, I know that they would have been there for me. I called one of my girlfriends in VA but she wasn't available. I told her I thought it was for the best at the point, and I really needed to work it out - with God right then.My mom was great - I avoided Dad a little, because I was in a fragile state and he doesn't do really good in those situations - he is a little at a loss. I will call him tomorrow :).
Anyway, I am fine and I am believing that everything is going to be fine..at least I am working on believing it. My emotions are mixed between relief and concern, and I am really thankful to God. He is my rock and fortress...so of whom should i be afraid??
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
So today i went back on weight watchers.
Be able to walk 3.5miles in one hour consistently without feeling winded. More later
Monday, June 16, 2008
Mobile blogging So i am sitting here wai
Mobile blogging
So i am sitting here waiting for my car to be fixed (a minor problem) and i figured i would try blogging from cell. So this weekend i did some thinking about my life and i decided i am not happy with the direction its going in somewhere i feel like i got off track these last few months. In my relationship with God and taking care of myself. So i have to get back to basics. Well actually i am not entirely sure what that means. But i think i do need to refocus upwards and inwards instead of outward. Ok car is ready more on this later
So i am sitting here waiting for my car to be fixed (a minor problem) and i figured i would try blogging from cell. So this weekend i did some thinking about my life and i decided i am not happy with the direction its going in somewhere i feel like i got off track these last few months. In my relationship with God and taking care of myself. So i have to get back to basics. Well actually i am not entirely sure what that means. But i think i do need to refocus upwards and inwards instead of outward. Ok car is ready more on this later
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