my camera...m.i.a.

I really have to find my camera.. I have been using my cell phone which I might add has been taking some great pictures, but I miss my camera :( .. I know it is around here somewhere.. I really don't want to tear my house apart looking for it.. (sigh) the insanity of it all is that i keep looking in the EXACT same places thinking is going to magically materialize!

(sigh)

I am going to have to ask God to bring it to my remembrance what I did with it.

I wanted to take pics of the jewelery I have made so far..but with my actually camera..

The search is on..

Thats all i wanted to say!


Oh wait one more thing..i just went through the process of labeling some of my blogs, I decide any blog where I ranted and raved about my feelings struggles, successes, etc I am labeling "Victorious Living" because that is what I am about doing..

The Lawn Hog pt. 2

** I decided my posts are way too long so I am breaking them up, even if I have to post multiple times in one day.. and this is going to be one of those times. So this weekend, I went to back to Lowes returned my electric lawn mower for a gas one. What an improvement. I have to thank one of my friends for picking up my old one taking me to Lowes to return it helping me pick out a new one, dealing with my indecisiveness, then getting me gas for my gas can, setting me up and giving me a gas lawn mower care and operation tutorial. I couldn't have done it with out him.

So i was out there mowing my heart out on Sunday morning at the crack of dawn. I was pretty impressed with myself, not my job, but the mere fact that I was out there handling my yard. I have big things planned for the front yard. That is my summer project.

I am thinking about taking Salsa lessons, but the jury is out on that one at the moment.

Oh I TOTALLY forgot to blog about the power of prayer and expectatations. See next entry for that...

replacing the lawn hog..

So last week.. I went lawn mower shopping. I was specifically looking for an electric lawnmower because i didn't want to have to deal with gas and oil. So a few of my girls and I ventured out.. So hard to find these lawnmowers..there aren't that many available.."Perhaps there is a reason for this?" Is the demand too high or two low to substantiate keeping them stocked in the stores? So after Sears and Home Depot let me down, we head over to Lowes and Eureaka! there is "Lawn Hog" just sitting there waiting for me.

So this weekend I went for it, 7pm, Buddy and I head outside. I sit and read pretty much the entire manual, then I plug it in and get ready to go. It wasn't very noisy, so I was really grateful for that, but it was one workout! OMG my yard is somewhat hilly, the back yard is really hilly, but man, it was tough! What made it worse was that I didn't have enough slack on the cord that was plugged into the outlet. I got an $8 50ft cord. Apparently, I need 100 ft. That is a lot of cord to keep track of. (sigh)

So my thoughts on this experience:
So there were a few mishaps - I have a allergic reaction to something starting last week and I am having a hard time figuring out what it is, but anyway, my face and neck don't look so great at the moment. (But I am healed in Jesus name - I had to add that in there). Anyway, sweating profusely opened up my pores and all that grass was blowing all over the place, because I used the setting to mulch the grass, for fertalization. Then I displaced about 10,000 bugs - I was hoping that I wouldn't get eaten alive. Only a few bites here at there but I am fine.Oh so back to my face and neck...they were literally ON FIRE! I have almost used an entire tube of cortizone10 since it stops my face from itching. but that couldn't help me in the great outdoors. No, My face and neck itched so bad I didn't know what to do with myself. I pressed on though.

There was some fear there for sure.

1. Fear of running over my feet,
2. Fear of running over buddy, who sometimes is not too bright,
3. Fear of looking like a lobster at work on monday because my face finished completely breaking out.
4. Fear of my legs also looking lobsterish because angry bugs decided that since they had no where to go, they might as well eat (me).

But despite all that I pressed on and finishe 80% of my yard. 20% couldnt get done because my cord wasn't long enough.

Anyway I am debating going this weekend and exchanging this for a gas powered mower - self-propelled at that. The jury is still out, but I have obtained transportation in the event that I decide to go through with it.

So the only casualty of war are my legs itching from 2-4 bites a got - no biggie there.My hair was completely destroyed - I did CPR on it this morning and all is fine (now). There is an area of my yard where, the blades were set to low, so it looks like it got scalped..its not pretty.

But overall it was pretty good and fantastic exercise. I need to finish mulching my front yard - this weekend hopefully. But I am really debating ditching the Lawn Hog for a self propelled gas mower. That cord is really annoying...I will think on this this week.

Oh..but most important - I have decided, that there is no way to do this and look cute at the same time. I looked crazy afterwards.

So I will keep you posted on my landscaping make over. I really should start taking pictures. My camera is MIA at the moment - that is a problem.

The "Craft-Fest"

So this weekend..I did something I have been trying not to do and that is to feed my flesh whatever it wants. So I was a little..I don't know if stressed is the word, but moreso dissapointed by the outcome of a situation where I put myself out there and didn't quite get the response I was looking for. I discussed this with a variety of friends and the concensus is..it too early to tell if I got the "blow-off" from this guy... BUT you couldn't tell me that on Saturday/Sunday so by Sunday after church I decided that I was going to craft my troubles away.

So why is this bad...I think it is a matter of really avoiding my emotions by pouring myself into crafting on Sunday. I am was having a problem with jewelry storage. I have a ton of costume jewelry that I had in several different spots.. So i saw a jewelry chest at PierOne, but it cost $500 so that was out. So Sunday..I spent 3 1/2 hours back and forth between Michaels and Home Depot. In the end I think I may have spent $50. I had a couple of rolls of ribbon, a piece of styrofoam, a small plank of wood. Some PVC pipe that I cut in half and I bought some kind of connector. Then I also purchased some hooks and some type of flower holder wire mesh.. don't ask.

So anyway when it was all said and done I had covered the wood in ribbon and put the hooks on it to hold my necklaces.

I am going to mount it to a wall in my closet one of these days. I wrapped the pvc pipe and connector in ribbon and used that to hold my bracelets.

I made a ribbon border around the styrofoam with the hooks for my earrings and rings.

It was was one long piece that I cut in half after I cracked it trying to do something with that mesh.. I couldnt use it and i was thinking of a use for it, since I started cutting it up and apparently Buddy likes to lay on it, so I put it near one of his dog beds. ..oh.. i just had an idea on how to make what I did less cheesy.. and it is a little cheesy..Martha Stewart would be a little dissapointed in my final product, but like I said I have some ideas on improvement...

So the problem wasn't just my "craft-fest" that in total including shopping probably lasted 10 hours. I should have gone to 6pm service but i was consummed with avoidance. After I finished all that, I reorganized my closets, cleaned my house and rearranged all my bedroom furntiure...which is by no means an easy task.

Lets just say in that pic, the bed was on the wall where the mirror is now. No piece of furniture in my bedroom is in its original place..

So it is safe to say I was a tad bit manic and I forced myself to go to bed because I had a meeting early the next day and at around 3am, I had to stop myself from washing several loads of clothes.

Anyway..I thought those days were over, where I become totally immersed in something..to that extreme. In this case it was to avoid something, maybe that is always the reason and I never really considered it. But Sunday it was bad, i didn't answer my phone, didn't eat..well I had lunch between Michaels and home but only because I was feeling light headed..,but that was it for the day pretty much.

So I am going to have to continue the work on not avoiding things that upset me. I got some great advice.."feel the fear and do it anyway"..but that is what got me into this predicament in the first place... But I will press on...

Enough said, I am going to bed early..